"Being deep."
Can it be described as merely complicated thought process, or even only deep thinking?
Maybe it can, but maybe it has another meaning to it. I mean, why do people even call you "deep"?Perhaps it's not about the thinking process, perhaps its more.Maybe it is how and why I admire you .You've took a fact and detached it, analysed it bit by bit. You shared what you found out, describing it so precisely, yet undeniably.You made me look back into what I've missed, my memories of the old days.
I know it might be hard to keep back what you suppressed for so long, but that is a feature of life. It's THE feature of life.After all, life is kind of like the concept of an RPG. You start off in your journey, unaware of what's in front,inexperienced and new of your surroundings, and as you slowly wonder, you'll get used to it, but it wouldn't be calm for long. Your first challenge will arrive,and it might be easy the first few times, but eventually the challenge will get harder, though do not worry, for as you gain experience, you'll grow stronger. You might fail one day, but that's the point.Life wants you to fall, and it will be watching you, seeing if you have the strength to proceed. You can choose to halt and loose everything you've once earnt, or you can stand up to it and give it your best.One day you might find yourself achieving your goal once and for all, and once you look back, you'll find it worth it, starting from your baby steps till today.
As for being accepted , it isn't that important. Now it might be true that we find it hard to blend in with people, but what's the point of it anyway? Stand out and be like a firefly,for one would see a single one as a complete waste of energy, but if many, they'll light up, and people would gasp at their works.I myself have this problem: no-one seems to accept my preferences (and neither my looks, as well), all but for a few friends. We share things in common, our interests, our constant urge to make stupid jokes, and the amount of times being picked on by other kids (which is a lot). It isn't necessary to fight back, we just support each other and ignore their words.Why care on such pointless things?
I don't know what you think, but I think you should stay who you are.After all, you are one of the few who inspired me, and perhaps changed my life, and I'm glad for who you are.And I'm sure that one day, you'll find someone that'll shine with you.
So I'll send you my best regards and, for now, I'll take a nap.
Good luck ^^